thank you. at 47 i hope i am halfway. my grandmother set the bar at 94. i am 11 years and 4 months past my expiration date. every day has been a bonus. i don't care when i die because it will never be enough. i will always want more. like you say... so many and much more to love. your words shave off the sharp edges around my ambiguity towards longevity.
Bravo! You know how when you are on holiday, maybe a week in another country, and it feels like forever? Every scene, every taste & smell, every feeling etched into your being. And it lasts. This awareness —this living— makes our lives wide and deep, not just long.
Ironically, I think wanting a taste of immortality has no minimum age requirement haha.. I remember having my first “existential” crisis at five years old, and ever since I’ve felt this strange obsession with the passage of time, fearing it, all the while forgetting to live!
Good heavens (I chose this expletive on purpose), I'm glad you chose to write this right now. For your sake--I'm so very glad these are your thoughts and feelings toward the approaching 4 decade milestone--but also, because I/we need this kind of effusion, if not daily, regularly.
Beautiful! I don't have your gift of words, so I'll just stick with beautiful!
thank you. at 47 i hope i am halfway. my grandmother set the bar at 94. i am 11 years and 4 months past my expiration date. every day has been a bonus. i don't care when i die because it will never be enough. i will always want more. like you say... so many and much more to love. your words shave off the sharp edges around my ambiguity towards longevity.
Bravo! You know how when you are on holiday, maybe a week in another country, and it feels like forever? Every scene, every taste & smell, every feeling etched into your being. And it lasts. This awareness —this living— makes our lives wide and deep, not just long.
Ironically, I think wanting a taste of immortality has no minimum age requirement haha.. I remember having my first “existential” crisis at five years old, and ever since I’ve felt this strange obsession with the passage of time, fearing it, all the while forgetting to live!
This was a great piece, thanks.
Good heavens (I chose this expletive on purpose), I'm glad you chose to write this right now. For your sake--I'm so very glad these are your thoughts and feelings toward the approaching 4 decade milestone--but also, because I/we need this kind of effusion, if not daily, regularly.